We never know the plans a d games of the universe. In one moment you're up, and then another moment you're down. Sometimes so down that you never can think to come up again. Until suddenly something happens in your life and everything lifts up.
Sometimes you are where you are and everything takes place. As if destiny. With no expectation whatsoever. A flower blooms. A chance is given. A hope arises.
All I can say it is really auspicious to witness all these changes from a place which is not changing. To be part of what makes life possible became a ball of fire. A fire of joy. A endless joy. Happier than happiness. Vaster than the universe.